your dreams can't last forever.

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 06:42:48 GMT

i won't be updating in this journal anymore because i changed my user name.
i_have_redhair.

so delete this from your friends page and add that one.

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 03:30:47 GMT

friends only :)

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 02:07:46 GMT

I HAVE SUCH AN AWESOME RELATIONSHIP WITH SUCH A TRUSTING PERSON.

OR NOT.

why the fuck can't you trust me ever ever ever ever evereverevereeverereee jesus christ.

"suffocated".

BORED. QUIZZES. AGAIN.

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 23:06:45 GMT

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Mon, 05 Jul 2004 21:53:43 GMT

haha i just saw dans parents. me and ashley were driving down crystal brook and all of a sudden i saw dan's mom. we got out and talked to them for like 10 minutes, i love them they are such nice people.
im getting really excited to go tomorrow. i already packed most of my clothes and stuff. im trying not to be scared about the plane.
ashley put me in a really good mood because we were just being stupid. we<3 twisted pleasure condoms. i hate that shit. ha. and tomorrow i get to see dannnnn. in 24 hours i will be at orlando airport, probably lost because i'm retarted and can't do anything by myself.
good mood good mood :)

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 04:18:02 GMT

Your soul is OPEN-MINDED. Although you do have
strong opinions and make decisions, you never
make them without thinking first of not only
everything that is, but those that may not be
as well. People trust that you'll willingly
hear them out and understand when they tell you
something, and you are well-liked for it. You
are often the mediator in disputes and your
desire to do what is right overcomes all else.
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eurotrip wasn't as funny as i thought it would be. i just saw like 400 boobs and some weird penises.

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 22:59:20 GMT

HOLY SHIT I'M SO BORED.
the past two days i've done like absolutely nothing. i haven't even showered today. and there is nothing to dooo except the beach and the beach is a fucking faggot.
and dan just yelled at me cause hes a cranky 3 year old who hasn't had his nap in 5 hours.
californiaaaaa californiaaaaaaaaa here wec eomeeeeeeeeee
i might just pack tonight cause theres nothing else to do. and packings a pain in my ass. but packing only takes like 45 minutes. i just wish there were somethinggg going on.
and i can't even get in touch with ashley cause shes weird.

IF YOUS A FAT ONE PUT YA CLOTHES BACK ON BEFORE YOU START PUTTIN POTHOLES IN MAH LAWN.

hahahahfdahfdsio. jesus christ i'm bored.

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 01:03:54 GMT

all i have done this whole day is clean. and i just had a huge argument with my parents and grandma about music and sex and "the media" and it was fun. ahaa.
gurtmans supposed to be here in a few minutes. she came to my house earlier today for about an hour, i basically did not speak to her the whole time cause i was too busy cleaning. ha.
bumpy is so cute. i love her. shes such a little baby shes so scared of fireworks awwa pupiesfds i love her so much cutiessspuppiessfdasjodfspoja.
all dashboard sounds the same to me. i downloaded a bunch of songs because i need to make a cd before i go to florida. im so fucking scared for the plane, especially the way home cause i'll be alone. i'm going to take double the dose of dramamine so i'll just fall asleep because if i'm awake i'll be shitting my pants the entire time.

i <333 warmmm summmmmerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 20:34:35 GMT

i like my new icon.
dan i want you to change my backround and ish because i am sick of it.

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 15:44:09 GMT

yeah i was really trashed last night haha. but last night was one of the funniest nights of the summer, i had so much fun.

i am up early and going to the beach with ashley and gurtman. blehhahsfdohi.

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 06:05:09 GMT

nobody's online for me to talk to. i am lonely, dan is sleeping. i want somebody to talk to..baconnn hahafdhoa bacon. dans sleeping.

tonight was RANDOM. i talked to a lot of RANDOM people out of nowhere. i think this is the drunkest i have been in um a while maybe since new years. or not. i'm not sure. my glasses are crooked hahahadsf i'm a dork.

i watched ashley tell me a lightning bug was broken, and some other girl named ashley told me iw as her best friend, ihad a random conversation with like 5 people and it was enjoyable. and i carried gurtman around for a while like she was my baby.

i love dan i love my friends. i dont want jenna to go to lbi but i hope she has fun. and oh yeah gurtman passed her roadtest I'M SO PROUD OF YOU BABIES and shes a good driver.

i burnt my finger and it hurts.

your the only one who knows exactly what i meannnn.

im going to florida in like 4 days. and im terrified to fly but its worth it cause i can hug dan. and kiss him. i dont even care about sex. i just want to be with him.

im so drunk. i need to go to bed.
im so tempted to im dans little brother just cause hes like the only one on but i wont do it cause dan will get mad at me hahaadf.

I'M GOING TO SLEEP NOW. i think.

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 04:35:45 GMT

tonight was fun, it was different. after standing around in the street for an hour we all decided to go down to some random beach, so like 25 of us went. it was soo pretty down there and made me miss dan ha but i still had fun. then i came home and ate everything in sight in my house.
im barely working this week, i worked today and i'm doing thursday and friday, but after that i'm off till i think the next monday. i'm going to florida in one f'ing week from tomorrow. i'm so scared to fly but i'm so excited to actually be in dan's house with him haha.

<33boston creme piee<333 mmmm.

im going to eat more and sleep.

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 00:38:32 GMT

stay until wednesday, and write me a child-like letter pretending..
at war here in thursday, lets make this our last day at home by the fence..

would you runnn down past the fenceeee (FBBIIIIII)

AND SHE SCREAMS CLAUDIOOOOO DEAR CLAUDDIOOOOOO I WISH GODDAMNITTT...WE'LL MAKE IT IF YOU BELIEVE

HAHAH I'M A FAGGOT I LOVE THIS SONG SO GODDAMN MUCH.
and i've posted it on here like 47298 times cause everytime i hear it i just want to sing but i can't so i write the lyrics instead. hafda

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 04:11:51 GMT

lolol dan's little brother cheers me up.
i am going to marry eric heskin. hahafdhaha.

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 19:11:47 GMT

the first few days of my summer have been awesome.
it has been so random and i fucking love it. wednesday night was so fucking funny and i spent it with the exact people that i wanted to spend it with. yesterday i'm sitting in my house and meg calls, i haven't spoken to meg in months or seen her in like a year and a half. she drove here to visit her boyfriend so she picked me up and i went to the beach with her, her friend melissa, and her boyfriend. where the f did that come from, i dont know.
last night me and michele achieved our goal of getting marissa trashed. haaaha. sippy cups what the fuck.
works going to be so boring tonight because everyone took off for marissa's suprise party and i couldn't.
gurtman/brandon what is going on i dont know. i'm in a good moooooodddddd.
and i'm going to florida in like a week and a half. and it feels like it's been summer for months i love it.
SHOWERRR cause i smell.

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 16:19:49 GMT

85 on fucking math b.

i dont know why i'm not completely happy, i'm weird.
and briska should call my house. that bitch.

DONE. :D

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 04:09:32 GMT

junior year = fucking done.

soo happy. so happy so happy and if i did good on that asshole of a regents then i'll be even happier. i'm pretty sure i passed. hopefully, knock on wood.

aerosmith concert tonight was a lot better than i thought it would be. it was so awesome, i loved it.

and now, for the next 2 1/2 months, i have nothing to wake up early for, nothing to study for, nothing but fucking summer.

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 08:54:06 GMT

what the fuck.
it's fucking 4:50 the night before my biggest fucking regents and my body is being retarted.
i tried to go to sleep at 11:30. but couldn't fall asleep till 1:00.
then i woke up at 4:30 and i haven't been able to sleep since.
and i have the worst fucking cramp in my arm because i always get cramps in random places everywhere.
im so pissed now, i'm so angry i needed good sleep tonight and now my head is going to be all retarted tomorrow from being tired.
this hasn't fucking happened to me in forever, why tongiht.

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 00:34:22 GMT

my computers a faggot.
math regents is tomorrow, i can't study anymore, everytime i look at a math problem my head hurts. so i'm just going to download music and relax the rest of the night. and after tomorrow at 3:30 PM, i am done with this f'ing school year.
i'm flying down to florida on july 6th instead of the 7th haha, because my mom found out that some of my family friends are flying down the 6th on southwest to orlando, and she suggested that i just switch flights so i'll have someone to talk to on my flight or something. i dunno shes weird but i dont care, now i don't have to fly alone one way and i get to be there a day earlier. 2 weeks from tomorrow.
my boss's last day is on friday, it's going to be weird with her not around.
goddd i can't wait for summer, i can't wait for retarted nights of stupid things and drunk jokes. ha.
and i can't wait for dan to come home, cause in like a fucking month i can call him and tell him to come over. and neither of us will have to spend $200 to see each other. and its really funny that i'm going to appreciate just being able to see him so much, it's going to be so weird and i'm just so excited.
i haven't listened to this song in monthsss i lost cd34 & 35 :(
k i'm done.

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 17:01:00 GMT

last night was weird. it was funny until stephanie died. im sorry babes i feel bad. i think my foot had throw up on it. but anyway.
i don't have to go to work today cause i don't have a rideee mothafuckaasss so now i'm happy.
ONE REGENTS LEFT.
english was a pain in my ass, u.s. was okay, i got a 95 on that and a 96 on spanish. i'm happy about those. everyday after regents i've been spending my life in briskas room doing millions of fucking math problems. if i don't do good on that goddamn regents..ugh.
and i'm happy cause i'm seeing dan in less than 3 weeks and he's coming home in like 5 and it's just good. and it's hot and i've been going to the beach and i LOVEE SUMMERRR. i am officially fucking done with junior year in 3 days.
i'm glad i hung out with taylor, stephanie, jenna, and i guess nicole (ha) cause i missed them. i really hadn't hung out with them in forever it felt like. and taylor slept over and we had intelligent conversations with my mom even though we were both still trashed.
i think i'm going to go lie outside even though the sun's going in and out.

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 23:02:32 GMT

My outercourse activity is snuggling!

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haha i'm a faggot.
today was a lot of fun. the u.s. history regents wasn't that bad except for the fact that it was 489230º in the gym. afterwards me, ashley, gurtman and elysse hung out the whole day at the beach and by ashley's pool. i'm sunburned againn woo I LOVE SUMMER. i lvoe summer i love summer and in 6 fdays i don't even have to fucking study or do homework for another 2 months.

i'm so happyyayayay.

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 22:18:30 GMT

the past 4 days are like a big blur.
every night that i work, when i come home i barely feel like going out cause i have to rush and it's too much of an effort to get ready lol.
i had my spanish final this morning, and what the f, it was kind of hard. i've had a 99 average in spanish the entire year so if i get anything under a 95 i'm going to be pissed lol. i went to the beach for a little while today, then back to jennas to "study" but yeah we didn't study at all. i've been studying for the past like two hours for u.s. history, it's so much though i don't know everything. i think i'll do okay though.
my mom made fajitas for dinner woo ahfdaoi.

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 16:29:17 GMT

yeah..people are definitely ridiculous.
anyway.
last night turned out to be really funny..the ride from a miller place party to kevin's house was fucking hilarious and i don't know why. at kevins we just sat around a fire. and burned sticks.
at driver's ed this morning we got wendy's..i <3 bacon cheeseburgers.

i have to study. 9 days and i am doneneneen.

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 05:04:48 GMT

yesss dan not answering his phone = me not falling asleep for a long time tonight.
awesome.
good job dan :)

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 02:11:29 GMT

yeah so i had no idea that i'd be sad to finish this year..i thought that on the last day i would just be so happy to get out. and when i think about it, the year wasn't that bad. it wasn't nearly as good as last year, but the second half of the year was actually okay. 11 days and i am completely done.
everyone's out, mostly at mccarrins, i have a bad headache and didn't feel like drinking or hanging out at a party. soo im staying home and i have no one to talk to :(
SUMMER ahhh all winter i have wanted this. i should be in such an amazing mood but i'm just blah. summer, beachhhh beach beach oh jesus no more school. no more salvia and no more archacki and nevermind i am happy.
NO MORE ARCHACKI that makes me so happy.i dont have to sit in that classroom ever again and stare at his fingernails and wonder if he ever ever cut them since like the war. i will miss mchugh though cause he's hot. and i'll miss french a little
and gym. i liked gym this year.
i burned my mouth on a french fry at work and it hurtsssssss.